Getting there slowly...

But that's okay. I haven't been doing the deprivation thing, so I'm okay. I'm almost back down to what I was a couple of weeks ago. Didn't exercise today either, as I fell yesterday. Hold on... I'm okay, I was just doing something stupid and stepped up on something I shouldn't have, and it collapsed on me, and I fell... on my butt... literally. But, as I came crashing down, I hit my shin on the chair I was on (as it fell over), and now I have a 6" square bruise (totally black and blue), and it hurts.

Water is good. Life is good. Sleep is good. Goodnight.

Oops! I Forgot to Measure, Weigh & Photo Yesterday!

But... I did it today. A day late. I did put in my weight from yesterday, though.

Today I did Bob's workout. Then I ran around, like I had to for various errands. Next, I cut down all of my grape vines, weeded for an hour, and started to clip the knarly branches into kindling. Hard work.

Juan finished picking the front for me, so all I had to do was sift and sort. I also shoveled. Yikes... those muscles sure hurt from yesterday.

I am very tired. It is hard to write. I ate okay yesterday and so far today.

I'll post pics later. I lost my file on previous measures, so I can't compare. Oh well. Fresh start (again!).

Weigh - In, I'm NOT a Loser Today

I think the scale is definitely not my friend. And right now, I totally wish I was a guy. They can lose weight so much faster than a female. I seriously envy that. Seriously! Talk about depressing... like I don't have enough of that. I got on the scale this morning... and... it read that I had GAINED 1.5 pounds since last Friday. No way! But, the scale does not lie...

So, I need to really be better. The cookies and little sneaks here and there were a little much. My snacking wasn't much better. I need to go back to regular healthy snacks. I have been skipping all my fruits, eating junk, tasting too much. It wasn't really a treat anymore. I was going over the "do not deprive" thing and rationalizing it completely in my head. Get that junk out of my head.

I will be totally gung-ho this weekend (today, too!). I am officiating a swim meet, so what better influence than all of those healthy athletes with young fit bodies? There is none! I want to be just like them when I grow up! Hopefully, one day I will be.

1/2 Pound Lighter

YES! I lost another 1/2 pound... I guess Friday the 13th isn't so bad afterall... I got up a little later, as the kids are off and sleeping. I did work out, I did weigh. I did great.

I am providing myself with the "proper" form and breathing (which is really difficult and has taken me almost forever to do; I'm still trying to master it), which is making me a little more achy. I will get over it.

Not much to say today, as I have a lot planned to get ready for Valentine's Day. LOTS of stuff to do!

2 more pounds!!!

I did it again! I by-passed last week's gain, and lost two more pounds! Yippee! Now... if only my clothes felt like it. I admit, the t-shirts don't seem to stretch across my chest as much now, but hey! Ya gotta lose some, to lose somewhere else...

Yesterday, I kicked back on eating so much. My hubby just rolled his eyes. (So much for support, eh?) For lunch, I had a baked potato with nothing on it but one pat of wannabe butter (low cal margarine) and a side salad. The potato (and the skin) were the best! Dinner, I made Broccoli, Rice & Chicken casserole. It was good too, and I didn't overeat on portions.

I did work out this morning, and while the plank positions are getting easier, it is still difficult. I didn't quit today. My shoulders don't burn so much either... uh... I traded down in weights for the military presses and V-squats. Yeah, I know. But seriously, I could not finish the sets with the heavier weights. The idea is babysteps, right?

I don't quite know how today or the weekend will pan out, but we'll see as we get there. In the meantime, I'm still ecstatic that I lost so much so far! I won't quite tell you my weight (as it's really embarassing), but let's just say I haven't been this weight in over a year. Yay me!

Today - NO Exercise! Tonight - NO CHILDREN!

My hubby got his W-2s in, so I worked on taxes most of the morning (the CA website is SUPER slow, and so is my computer). Also, my (almost) 4-year-old got up at 7am. What is with her? But hey. I still worked super hard. I did some knees to floor work while cleaning, and still feel good.

To make it up (which I will), I will be skipping Sunday as my rest day this week. (Cheer me on!)

But... for the good news... I lost two (2) more pounds! Yay me! I also got a new scale, which is digital, that is whey the tenths is on there. Woohoo! I'm doing great! I am proud of myself! You can be, too!!!

Enough for now... I got a hot date with my hubby tonight. We are actually doing NO CHILDREN!!! Let's see how that goes.

Without Jillian Today...

Today, my almost 4-year-old woke up earlier than normal. So... I wasn't able to exercise with my motivator, Miss Jillian Michaels. Bummer, but... I did her workout (sans Jill!) anyway and just set my timer for 30 seconds to keep up the interval pattern. Worked for me! I even sweated more. Probably because I was killing myself, as I started my workout WAY late for me. I almost wasn't sure I'd get it in. But I did. I made myself... and it wasn't that bad.

Okay folks... the recipe that is on the sidebar for the flushing-type tea (drink) tastes HORRIBLE!!!! But, today I'm going to the bathroom constantly, so it must take a day to "work." However, I think I will still drink 3 cups of tea (1 teabag each at different point37.56/12) with just a splash of cranberry juice and a splash of lemon juice. This will be much easier to "phone it in" (down it quickly) than to drink almost two quarts of nasty stuff! Plus, I drink enough water throughout the day, I really don't need the diluted version.

I haven't weighed myself yet. Will save that for tomorrow morning, as I did my initial weigh at 11:30pm, and have decided (after the poll that only one person completed - guess I don't have very many readers... lol!) to weigh myself first thing in the morning. Maybe this will do more for my whompa! Gotta give something a try, as I haven't been doing this that long, yet I feel I've already reached one plateau and nothing is changing!

I'm thinking this "flushing" is hopefully the change I need to rev my engine. Woohoo! I'm comin'!!!

2 more pounds!!!

I lost 2 more pounds! Yeah! This next week, I'm going to try Jillian's recipe to the right (in the sidebar). I hope to "flush out my system" a little and feel more energetic. Hopefully, that will also lead to more pounds lost.

I am extremely tired. I thought (because "experts" said so...) that once I started exercising and eating right on a regular basis, I would have a lot more energy... So... when is it coming? I can't wait for that energy to get here...

I'm okay with my weight loss, because I know what I did this week. I also didn't kill myself and deny things that beckoned. I used the moderation method and feel pretty good about my choices.

Last night, I ate 6 dark chocolate Hershey Kisses. Today... I ate a 2 pieces of bacon, but stopped there. I also ate a bunch of popcorn (sans butter) tonight at the movies. I think I did pretty okay. Yay me. I will keep going.

On another note... I had a doctor appointment today. And while they have gone to "paperless", it is really saddening and depressing that when they show me the screen, in the lower right hand corner, with a bright red flag next to it... it says "OBESITY: active". How sad is that? I don't think I look that large, but then again, I'm not a doctor. It certainly puts a reality check on me. I look forward to the time when I go in, glance at the screen, and nothing with a bright red flag will be there. Woohoo... 43 pounds to go! Yeah me!

Am I Doing It Right?

Schwoo! Even though my muscles aren't getting sore anymore and I can actually get through the whole 30-Day Shred, my breathing is still difficult. As I close my eyes while doing my crunches, I hear Jillian's voice saying, "Exhale" and "Inhale" during certain parts of the regime. Sucking in your tummy, belly button to the floor and inhaling on the way down? Uh... I can barely breathe, let alone concentrate on how I am breathing!

So, I ask... is there a difference as long as I am breathing? Maybe this is my problem...

Uh... NO! My problem (and I have to admit it) is that while I was once pretty fit (WAY back in the day!), I let it go. I am one of those people that constantly told myself I could work it off and not worry about anything. And here I am today, more than 50 pounds overweight and barely able to get through a workout. Yuck!

I am trying to reinforce to my girls that they need to STAY in shape. This is a forever task. It does not stop. We should not stop it. Do they really want to end up like me? I sure hope not. And so I'll keep telling them... until I die! I really don't want them to have to fight like I do.

While I worked out this morning, I had to focus... not on Jill telling me to keep going, not on the exercises, but on continuing the exercise. I seriously wanted to stop. So... I looked up at the ceiling while I did "butt kicks" and "jumped rope". I breathed with a Cheerio mouth, concentrating on pushing the air out of the little hole my lips had formed.

BEWARE: TMI (TOO MUCH INFORMATION ZONE!)
I listened to my flabby pouch hit my "bikini line" and cringed. This is something I want to get rid of. The sound disgusts me. It sounds like a flat tire hitting the road at high speed as the car continues to move. Gross!

Another thing I'd like to get rid of... my Uni-Boob! While all women like things to be "lifted and separated", it is not always possible in a sports bra. However, I am hoping that with more work, my "friends" will become a little more like they used to be.

I'm also hoping (and praying!) that when the weight goes, so will the itching. I itch everywhere! In all places fatty. The fat hangs and causes an "icky" feeling... and it itches! Yuck! I disgust myself.
OK: LEAVING TMI!

Now, don't get me wrong. If you are overweight, you do not disgust me. It is those little things that each and everyone of us is so critical of in ourselves that disgust me. It is me that disgusts me. I need to get off this roller coaster and shake it off!

Hmm... maybe I'll go do something else "productive" for the time being. Today is laundry day. According to Jonathan of the No Excuse Workout, if I walk back and forth to put away ONE item at a time, I will get in another workout. It's worth thinking about.

But, as I am starting to realize today is weigh-in, I am wondering if morning, daytime, or night is better. (I've been keeping Thursday night weigh-ins.) Please take the poll in the right-hand side bar and tell me what you think. Feel free to leave comments to explain your theory. Thanks in advance!